Pain can be overwhelming, a great fish that swallows us. The magnetic pull to shut down or turn to destructive means to find healing can be inundating. We feel as though we’re drowning without ever stepping into the water.
But to shut down is the easy answer.
Much harder is to discover our own method of healing, our own way of wrestling through the pain.
I receive multiple colored auras, which sometimes last for hours, before I am hit with the worst migraines. This means some sort of wave is traveling across my visual cortex. The sight of anything resembling an aura usually makes me nauseous.
The experience was healing. For once, I directed where the colors go. I dictated how much of my vision it seizes. And after a lifetime of surrendering, for one sweet moment I felt in control of my migraines.
Kind of nice being queen of the hill.
Let’s not give into the easy answers. Let’s strive to fight the good fight and finish the race together. Let’s search for healing even though the path is harder.
And maybe we’ll have another painting to show for it.